Friday, 2 April 2021

Acknowledging Human Violence: A Good Friday Confession

On this day 
We are reminded
Of the violence that emerges
Even in the very closest of relationships -
Of brutal kisses.

On this day
We are reminded
Of the violence instigated, ordered, permitted,
By those given responsibility,
Abusing the power and authority 
Which they have been granted.

On this day
We are reminded 
Of the violence inherent
In standing by and saying nothing.

On this day
We see these violences
All around us
And within us. 

And we pray,
Lord, have mercy. 


Sunday, 14 March 2021

"Unconditional Love"

This is safe space. 
You can say anything to me and I will reserve judgement 
whilst I listen closely
and carefully 
and consistently 
to your soul.  

Unless you say those things.

I am here for you.
I will walk with you on this path of life,
wherever it takes you. 

Unless it takes you there.

My love for you is unconditional.

Except when it's not.



Written 11th August 2019
and found this morning in some old notes on my phone!

Saturday, 27 February 2021

Daffodils

They said it on the radio:
Thousands of pounds worth of daffodils 
left unpicked in Cornwall;
Fields of potential
losing their bloom
to the rotting stench of missed opportunity.
The harvest is ready, he said
But the workers too few. 

Meanwhile, 
Brenda sits at her dining table
Reeling with shock at how quickly 
Jack's cough became his permanent absence
The added twist of the Mothers' Day knife
in her husbandless, childless gut.

Yet gratitude
as well as grief
catches in her throat:
There are flowers and a note and love on the table
delivered by the lady from church

who has been doing this kind of thing for years,
but much more systematically 
since getting recognition
from the new minister

who has a good eye for systems 
and is flourishing in this role
she never would have explored
if not encouraged by a deacon back home

who was so inspired 
by the prophetic vision
of the speaker at that event

who was surprised 
but pleased 
to be invited by her regional minister

who has felt humbled
by the quality of support
he's received from his colleague

who was that tired of all the 
malevolent and
"benevolent" and
systemic
sexism 
everywhere
that she almost quit,
if not for her mentor

who for many years was unsure of her own voice 
and worked hard to find it and share it
and help others find theirs, 
and each other's
and God's
and delights in what she hears 
from these folk coming through
and prays 
and hopes 
and speaks out for change
that they might not be trampled
but helped to bloom.

And so it is
that a vase of the daffodils 
that did get picked
now sits on Brenda's table;
bright and bold and defiant
heralding golden glimmers
of a harvest of hope.

Wednesday, 10 February 2021

Solitude


On some days
When the fog sets in 
It can seem I am all alone -

A solitary, bare-branched tree by the water’s edge
A sketchy shadow
Lost in the undefined blur.

There have been days 
when the fog 
and the loneliness 
have frightened me.

But not today. 

Today I shall revel in this sensory hush
Today I shall ponder my undisturbed reflection
Today I shall cherish this fleeting moment
Before it’s misty veil lifts. 


Wednesday, 20 January 2021

A Personal Take on a Classic Prayer*


Nurturing, caring God,

Whose 'location' is something of a mystery
    but whose dwelling place is surrounded by wholeness and thriving;

Who you are is holy.

May the signs of your perfect stewardship flourish into reality,
May your loving purposes be enacted,
Here and now,
In this place and time,
As well as in the visions we glimpse and the future we hope for.

We reach to you in trust for the sustenance we need for today.

Lift the burden of our brokenness and the lacking in our limits
    with your kindness and grace
Teaching us by your example to do the same.

Call us away from the harm we are enticed by and fall into -
Deliver us from ruin.

In you is the destination, 
              the key,
              all beauty and truth.
              Always.

                        AMEN.


*Cf. 'The Lord's Prayer' - if you hadn't picked that up by now!

Digital Unity


Musings on Unity
From the Congregational Saying of The Lord's Prayer
On Zoom
In a Time of COVID

Let us say together the prayer that Jesus taught us to pray...

It won't be slick
It's out of sync
        But never mind.
Now we know
It's less 'the show'
        More willing commitment.

Prayers in a COVID Winter

"Roll on Spring", we say.
I say.

Roll on lockdown liberation
And the nation's vaccination
Actual corporeal congregation
Even taking vacation!

And in our desperation 
"End this, God!" we pray;
"Get us back to normal"
Our petitionary oblation.

Oh! 
How we need your grace for our prayers
As well as our hearts and hospitals and homes.
May they hold more truth and wisdom and life
Than simple grass is greener tropes.

Yes, Lord! We long for relief
For the ebbing of this tide of grief
And it's in fervent, hopeful belief,
    That we seek the green blade rising.

Yet as we do, let us hear your asserting:
Your re-greening will be more than re-vert-ing,
For true nourishing hope draws up the hurting
    In its holy metabolising. 




Written with input from my colleague, Rev Sarah Crane, Lead Chaplain at Milton Keynes University Hospital